Payton's Big Girl Room

I finished Payton's big girl room and we both LOVE it.  My favorite view is from inside her reading "castle" as she calls it.

I still need to get some decor for the dresser, but that is going to have to wait.

P's First Time Bowling

We took Payton bowling for the first time and she LOVED it.  She almost beat me too.  That is pretty embarrassing to admit, but I am pregnant and she had bumpers and a ramp.  Those are my lame excuses anyway.

Tyler schooled us with a game of 145.  I only beat Payton by 5 points.  Pretty pathetic.

Pregnancy So Far

When I was pregnant with Payton I think I only took one pregnancy selfie at 6 months.  Now that I am pregnant again I always compare it with Payton's.  I really wish I had taken more pictures to just physically compare the way I hold this baby.   So I have taken more pictures this time around.

  I feel pretty blessed with both pregnancies in terms of the morning sickness.  But the main difference this time around is the CRAZY spurts of hormones.  I cry over EVERYTHING.  We took Payton to Big Hero 6 and I cried.  In an animated movie.  What is wrong with me?  Poor Tyler has to deal with my up and down emotions every few days.  I don't remember being like this with Payton.

Also this time around I still have the crazy cravings, but fortunately (and sometimes unfortunately) I can't cave to my cravings.  As I am watching tv shows or movies I notice what people are eating and it always looks so good.  The McDonalds and Arby's commercials always leave me wanting to run and get a Big Mac or a Roast Beef Sandwich which honestly I never even ate before.  I think it is a combination of being pregnant and knowing I can't eat those things anymore because of being Celiac.  But whatever it is, I am partly glad that I know about my gluten allergy because I haven't gained near as much weight with this pregnancy and I have been forced to eat really healthy which makes me feel a lot better.

In total with Payton I gained almost 50 pounds.  It is SO hard to say no to pregnancy cravings.  So I am really grateful this time around I have to say no.  It really isn't an option anymore.

24 weeks

28 weeks

31 weeks

2 more months and we get to meet this little guy.  I cannot wait.  Although, this time around I am going to cherish those newborn moments a little more.  With Payton I was always looking forward to her next milestone.  I couldn't wait until she could laugh.  Or sit up.  Or say her first word.  Or walk.  I was always more excited about the next big thing in her life instead of cherishing the little moments along the way.  And now Payton is 2 and half, potty trained, having conversations with complete strangers and most of the time doesn't even need her mommy.  And it happened just like that.  This time around I am going to try to enjoy every moment.  

Potty Trained

When Payton was 22 months I swore that she was showing all the signs of being ready to be potty trained.  Honestly, I just wanted to be done buying and changing diapers.  I know that it is possible to potty train that young, but it REALLY depends on the kid.

Anyways, I did a ton of research and read a lot of potty training books and decided that it wouldn't be that bad.  Oh my gosh.  I was so wrong.  It was the worst week of my life.  I spent 5 days straight sitting on the wood floor, cleaning up messes, and trying to find things to distract Payton to sit on the potty long enough to go.  After 5 days of no progress I decided to just give up.  I didn't want it to be traumatizing for her when we tried it again and I honestly couldn't handle any more of it.

So a week ago I decided to try it again.  She was definitely more ready then the last time, but she still didn't mind running around in a poopy diaper.  I was a little nervous that I was forcing it again, but I really didn't want to have 2 kids in diapers and have to attempt potty training with a newborn.  So I gave it a second try.  

This time was SOOOO much easier.  Don't get me wrong.  It still sucks.  I felt like a prisoner in my home for a whole week straight, but she did awesome.  We actually spent the whole first half of the first day teaching her doll how to go.  She didn't get out of a diaper until after her nap.  I read a lot of blogs and books about using a doll and heard great things about it.  I don't know if it is the doll that helped her potty train so quickly or something else but I will do it with all my kids. 

Most importantly though....I will never try to push a time line on my kids to potty train.  They will potty train when they are ready.  And trust me it was so much easier the second time around.  

It's hard to tell in this picture but she is wearing her Elsa dress, Frozen slippers, her kitchen apron and chef hat.  This girl loves to dress up.

Nesting

Nesting has officially gotten the best of me.  I am so excited to start decorating our little baby boy's nursery.  His room used to be the "I don't know where to put this" room.  It was full of storage boxes, things that needed to be organized, things to sell, the list goes on and on.  So last week we finally got everything put away and put up Payton's old crib, rocking chair and changing table.  We even put up some curtains.  But that is about it.  The walls are completely blank and it is really starting to bother me.  So I have found a way to decorate without having to spend more then $100.

So the curtains (navy blue and white pattern pictured behind the rocking chair) we already had from the Layton house.  The 3 picture frames we already have as well, I just have to paint the two outside frames navy blue.  The arrow and "Be Brave" prints I printed for free at home.  The deer print I am buying off of ETSY for $20.  The Scrabble letter is $12 off of amazon.  We really like the name Oliver but we aren't set on it yet so we won't actually buy that until we see him and decide what name fits.  The splurge item are the grey arrow crib sheets.  They are $50 on ETSY.  I CAN NOT sew so I  don't want to go the cheap route and buy the fabric and make them myself.  That would be a complete disaster.

The thing I am most excited about are the deer antlers.  Tyler shot this 4 point buck last year and we have these awesome antlers.  

We just need to buy a wooden mount and some cool fabric that matches the curtains and make it look something like this.  It can't be too hard right?  

So the total cost is:

Deer print: $15

Scrabbler letter: $12

Arrow crib sheets: $50

Wood mount and fabric: $15

Total: $92

Payton's room is also a work in progress.  Right now there is only one thing up on the wall, but I am working on a gallery wall to go above her dresser that will look like this when I am done.

I have everything already except for the wooden P that I bought for $5 and turquoise paint for the P and the heart frame.  I love decorating for cheap.  It is the best.

Adding some color to our blank walls

I have been really putting off decorating our rental, but I finally adding some color to our off white walls.  I love it and now I want to do more.  I'm pretty sure it is because I am nesting.  Now we actually have a family picture up (even though it was a family picture taken a year and a half ago).  At least we have one up.

 

On a side note....this little tinker bell is pretty much potty trained (at least in our own home).  We will attempt to face the public in a few days.  

Embracing Celiac

About 6 months ago I found out that I have Celiac disease.  1 in 133 people in the US have it (about 1%), but only about 1 in 3,000 are properly diagnosed.  All through my childhood and teenage years I remember my mom being in pain.  She said it started with stomach pain but then turned into joint and muscle pain.  For 20 years she was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and given prescription medicine that never helped her.  It wasn't until 2 years ago that a doctor thought to do an endoscopy and check her stomach.  She wad diagnosed with Celiac and told that the only way to get her free from pain was to go on a gluten free diet.  After trial and error with testing different foods she finally felt back to normal.  It is crazy to me that doctors were prescribing all sorts of medication for her to put in her body when really all she had to do was stop putting gluten in her body.  I guess for those who have gluten intolerance or Celiac, when gluten has been in your system so long the damage to your stomach then expands throughout your whole body.

Soon after that my brother was having similar symptoms and after getting tested was diagnosed as well.  Seeing the drastic change my mom and brother had to make with their new diet I felt blessed that I didn't have to make that change.  I never really had any symptoms that they had so I didn't think anything of it.  Then I had Payton.  I don't know why but I guess a lot of women don't have symptoms of Celiac until after going through some sort of traumatic event in their life like going through child birth.  I started having extreme stomach pain after every meal I ate.  For a while I just ignored it because honestly I didn't want to find out if I had celiac or not.  I figured I did because it is genetic, but I just didn't want it to be reality.  So for about a year I just ignored it.  Then I finally got tested and sure enough I had celiac.

*Just as a warning, the next few paragraphs are pretty negative.  If you don't want to hear me complain about all my frustrations with having Celiac then I would stop reading.  I just wanted to get them all out in writing hoping to have a new perspective this coming year.

The process of getting gluten out of your diet is a lot harder then I thought.  Gluten is hidden in so many ingredients.  Luckily I had my mom close by to help me become an expert on what to look for on ingredient labels of food.  At first grocery shopping took me twice as long because I had to read the label of every food item before I put it in my cart.   I learned the hard way that just because an item is labeled Gluten Free doesn't necessarily mean it is safe to eat.   

Grocery shopping is now a lot easier after just 6 months of my diet, but the hardest adjustment by far has been social events.  Going to any gathering where food is served I have to ask the person who made the food to tell me exactly what ingredients are in the food and if there is gluten anywhere I have to make sure that the food I eat hasn't been touched by any crumbs from bread/crackers/utensils/cutting boards/etc.  For me that is hard to do.  I feel really stupid and high maintenance asking people all those questions so I just generally eat before or after I go.  Then I feel stupid because people start to notice that I'm the girl that never eats anything.  

In our neighborhood we have play groups every week.  Once a month they do a pot luck and one time I brought pineapple.   There was TONS of good food there and I was the girl that had only pineapple on my plate.  No one said anything because I don't really publicly announce that I can't eat gluten, but I felt really stupid. 

Going out to eat is pretty rare these days.  And if we do go out to eat I have to be the girl who badgers  the waiter about what ingredients are in the foods and how they prepare it in the kitchen.  Luckily gluten intolerance is becoming more common so there are some restaurants I have found that are pretty accommodating.     

If you can't tell I have been very negative about it and just really feeling sorry for myself.  I have never heard my mom complain about having to change her diet and I felt really guilty for being so negative.  Then I think about people who have diabetes, chron's disease, or any other day to day physical struggle people go through and I feel horrible for thinking that I have it bad.  Especially because some people I know that have other diseases are so positive about it.  And having to change my diet a little is nothing compared to what I could be going through.

The other evening a came across this blog post by a guy that calls himself the GLUTEN DUDE. Some things he said really helped me put everything in perspective.

He said,

"When I was first diagnosed five years ago, I remember telling Mrs. Dude that I can’t make any promises I won’t cheat. It just seemed so overwhelming. And permanent. And not knowing too much about the disease, I figured the occasional slice of pizza couldn’t possibly harm me. Thankfully, I educated myself, I never caved and this has allowed me to heal.

But I know not everyone’s will-power may be up to the challenge. Take my advice. Give yourself time.

You’re pissed…and rightfully so. It’s ok to be angry. It’s ok to mourn the loss of your old life. It’s ok to long for the care-free days when food and spontaneity could be used in the same sentence. Be angry. Be sad.

But then move on. Look forward and not back. You have to or you’ll lead a miserable, bitter life. You can’t have gluten. Oh well. Face it…there are worse things in life. Much worse.

You have to rise to the mental challenge or you will never succeed in going gluten free. A friend of mine recently stated over dinner that my disease must be great for my will-power. It is indeed. Once you get it through your head that you CAN do this, it really gives a jolt to your self-confidence that you can carry over to all aspects of your life.

Face it. You’ve most likely been living the same life, making the same decisions and eating the same foods for your entire life. If you think about it, it’s kinda boring. You’ve got an opportunity to completely change how you live. I think that’s pretty cool.

Want it. Accept it. Embrace it.

And pretty soon, you’ll love it."

So I have decided that one of my main goals this year is to be more POSITIVE about my Celiac issue and embrace it.

So here is my list of good things that have come from this:

1. No more migraines or stomach pain

2. It is a lot easier to stay in shape because I am forced to eat healthy

3. My daughter eats a lot healthier then most kids because I can't really have many processed foods in my house

4. We save money by not going out to eat a lot

5. I feel healthier

6.  I didn't have to go through what my mom did (20 + years of pain not knowing that she had it)

7. I have developed a strong sense of discipline in terms of diet which has transferred into many aspects of my life

8. I have been able to curb my sugar addiction

9.  I have found some amazing healthy recipes that taste even better then the recipes I cooked before

10.  I have learned a lot about what they put in processed food and how to keep my body free of all the chemicals they sneak in food

All in all I feel very blessed to be one of the people that was able to be properly diagnosed and eliminate what was causing me pain early on in my life.  I know that this is a life long change and I vow to be more positive through it all.